The Randomness of Teppy’s mind!!

Getting Ready for Mom's 61st B-day: As we are baking the her a cake, and signing the birthday card I think about how it seems so odd to be only 26 and my mom is turning 61. Yesterday at work a grandma came to pick up one of my kids, and I thought to myself wow, shes like 40 somethin, but that cant be possisble since I would have swore that the parents were early 30's. But honestly, it is possible, a mom can be 30 when the grandma could be like 46 or so.. Its all possible.. But My mom didnt have me until she was 35...(well almost 35). I remember when I was a kid I thought to myself that i would never do that, be an older mother...I told myself i wanted to have kids between 18-20ish....well ovbioulsy that never worked out!! And now I am enjoying being a married woman, with no kids...I love my husband and right now I just want to enjoy the time we have just the 2 of us..... Im not saying that I dont ever want to have children....but Im not ready for them right now....so what does that leave me?? Well being an older mother... Which in turn brings me to another thought..............

What is so WRONG with how we were raised?: Being an older mom, what would be so wrong with that?? What is it that made me so against that as a child?? Was my mom a bod mom??? BY NO MEANS!!! She did so much for me...yes, she was perfect, and NEITHER was I!!!! yes I do wish that childhood didnt have to be so hard, and I would hope and pray that for generations to come life get nicer and not meaner.. Anyway...being an older mom, or even a single mom(god forbid somethin bad happen to my hubby, because he knows I AM NEVER DIVORCING HIM), it wouldnt be the worst thing...My mom did it!! Yes I would hope that I could take care of my children even half as good and my mother took care of me and my sister. But it seems that everybody is complainging about their childhoods, and swearing that they will NEVER treat their children the way that their parents treated them... Some of my co workers were talking about some of the parents that they work with everyday... Somebody was talking about how they decided to not have Show-and-tell in their class anymore, but the preschool class next to them was keeping their Show-and-tell time.. they were canceling it because of all of the fighting between the children over the toys, because toys were being broken, and because it was making alot of frustrated parents... Anyway one parent complained about the new rule, because his twin children were in oppisite classes, and there was alot of grief at home because one child could bring toys to class and the other could not...Anyway the teacher was talking to the parent about they will be repalcing show and tell with share and tell or something like that, anyway the parent said "well i will have to see how my child feels about that" kind of implying that if the child does not like this, something will still need to be changed!! please understand I do want to repect children....but I honestly dont think letting a child get everything he wants in respecting him or her and or teaching them anything... that child is going to have do deal with teachers doing diffrent things and following different rule for the rest of his life, and honestly making him belittle the teacher is not a possitive message to be teaching you child. I understand that parents want to be better parents, and that they want their children to have things that they never had as children, because that is part of growing as evolving as people, All im saying is that parents really need to think about what message they are sending their children when they give them everything in the world that they want!!! Because the world will be a HUGE shock, if thats how they live!!

LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS!!: A friend of mine wrote a blog last week about how she got into some hard times as a teen, and she cant even imagine how many people looked up to her, and how she thinks that she may have set so many people on the wrong path. And now that she a god fearing mother she worriers that she will reap what she sowed... that her children will be lead by somebody like she was, and get into the wrong kind of things and etc... Which honestly I think most parents feel that way, they hope that their children will not have to go through such tuff lessons for them to understand to not go down that path.. But my thought about this is... If she hadent gone through these life challenges, she wouldnt be the amazing person that she is now. I know that my friend has gone through some of the worst things imgainable...but look who she is now, and the wonderful family and friends that she has surrounding her now!! My heart rejoices for her!! She is a true testament to others, about how to overcome the bad, and still hold tight to your faith!! I love you Shann! So basically what i am saying to everybody is... Dont regret the past, rejoice in the fact that you have lived and learned....and yes...STILL LEARNING!!! "Please be patient with me, for god is still working on me"

When does a friend become an acquaintance??: When I moved more then a year ago, I was worried that I would lose my friendship with my pals from willyville, almost all of them reminded me that it was just a 30 minute drive away, not another state. And besides theres always the phone.. Well with MOST of them, i havent heard from them, unless I called them, or tried to have contact with them in some way... But at the same time, I havent tried as much as I probably should have, But life has changed for me, and has for them, we no longer share a job, or share friends and everyday activities, sometimes it just doesnt seem much worth it, when all you can do is have small talk, catch up on eachothers lives and thats about it...we all dont live close enough to just hang and chill on a regular bases...I dunno...Its all just left. So when did that happen?? When I moved? or sometime since then? Sometime in the middle of our busy lives? But now, even with the person who used to be my bestfriend (who of course moved even further away) we dont talk, hardly at all....but even when we do...I dont open up, I dont tell her my inner thoughts and feelings...our lives have reatched different chapters in the book of life..But I hope all of my once close friends, whether or not we are close now, I love you, and will always hold you near my heart!!!

Doctors evil plot or just added benifit??: So if any of you (other then just dear sweet mandy) read my last blog, you would know about my nasty migraines. Anyway I went to see a doctor several weeks ago...Anway she gave me lots of meds, a daily to help prevent the migraines, some meds to help when I feel a migraine start, and to help get rid of one once I have it!! Anway the daily pills that help prevent, I found out also is a mood stabalizer....mostly given for people with bipolar syndrome...so that fact that I have biplor, and that I have not taken any medications for the last 2 years (well mostly because I felt that it was killing me as a person, but thats another story), so my question is, was the doctor purposely giving me this medicne because she knew it may help with mood and such, or is that just an added bonus? Well so far...I am a little unknown on how I feel about it...and if it is changing/helping my mood in any bit. I do STRONGLY feel that is helping with preventing the migraines...I have been mostly migraine fee for almost 2 weeks now!! I also feel that maybe...just maybe it is slowing down my mind...at least enough that I can write down something that I am thinking about i.e. this blog....when normally, my mind races so fast I cant constrate enough to explain or say what I want!!

ENDING THOUGHTS: Last week was my grandmothers 80th birthday party....My uncle asked her for any words of wisdom... She said "Dont sweat stuff, and love and laugh!!" Thats all she said... Maybe we REALLY should take that to heart!!