A Babies Smile!

I'm sitting here trying to ignore all if their annoying habits! Co-Workers banging on the table, smacking their lunch while they eat, reading articals outloud about some celebrity, talking with eachother about American Idol......the list goes on. I have my headphones on, with the volume turned up as loud as I can! Some people may walk by and think that I am trying to tune-out my bipolar thoughts that are running a million miles per minute! And that may be the case on some days, but today it's so I don't go insane from all the annoying habits you people hold. Most days I can ussually ignore these things. Today is not a normal day. It's been a long week.....emotionally! More then likely a blog for another day! Let's just say it's a doozy, with death, skulls, and repressed memories! This is really the first day I have been at work all week and it's Thursday! In some ways I really hate that I have to be here! I wish I could afford to take some more time off for some "mental health" time! Although I'm not really sure if more time would help. There are the other ways that I feel completely blessed to have the job I do! It's pretty easy to leave all your worries at the door when you come to work with 8 of the most adorable babies in the world! ;). I work in child care, and beleive me it's sometimes a really emotionally draining job! But other days it's the only thing that can lift you up! Today was one of them! The demons in my mind have been tearing up my heart all week, and just when I think I can't handle anymore I pick up a baby and they giggle and smile as big as they can! During that moment everything that was on my mind, in my heart, it's all gone and all I can think about is this precious baby! It reminds me that God is near by, and even though things get hard, and then harder, and even harder He is there, Holding my hand or Carrying me through, and as long I remember that and give it up to him, things will get better, they always do, God is always there! I always hear people talk about when things get hard for them they question god, and deny his pressence, they say " if God was True, why would he let these bad things happen? Why wouldn't he stop the pain?!" God gave us freewill! And most of the time people really appricate that! But with freewill comes sin,and with sin comes pain! Now, sometimes one persons sin can cause their entire family pain, for years and years and years! And God will be there for that family, but he won't turn back time, he won't take back someones sin! He won't take back the freewill that he gave us all! He will comfort those in pain, he will show us the light of a lesson through the pain. He might even touch someone elses heart, so they don't commit that same sin. And he will guide you as long as you will listen! He is a gentle god, he is a forgiving god, he is a god that stands by his word, he is a god that loves his children. He loves us so much, that he doesn't control us, he let's us make our own stupid mistakes, but he will be there to listen to us confess that we are dumb, he will be there to help us learn from the dumb, and even when you rebel and run as far as you can from God, but he will still be there, just patiently waiting , for whenever you may need him.....he will be right there! & If you look close enough you might even see his face someplace random, like in a babies smile! ;)


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